The day after

I am feeling better since yesterday's meltdown.  I tried to capture it as best I could in the written word, but sometimes even the best words and descriptions do not do feelings justice.  How can you describe what it's like, pain?  It's something physical for sure, but it's also something within each of us.  It can be triggered by something small, something hidden, something you forgot or tried very hard to forget.  Sometimes I wonder why it is that others think they can be so cruel to others, think it's ok to mess with others' emotions and feelings and it's so not their fault that they do so.  They have their reasons why, they accuse you of being the crazy one who was taking it all so seriously and you are irrational and hysterical.  Meh, I guess it's all relative. 

What the best thing is is to just let it be.  Just hope against hope that I can keep going on without so much as another blip on the radar.  It was a big blip, but that's all it is. 

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