2ndclepunkbuddha

The movie has yet to come to fruition in which I will be posing naked within.  Making movies is not cheap and finances are tight, plus the director's car was broken into and much of the footage already shot not containing me was stolen.  Fortunately for him the majority of his students have saved the information in bits and pieces, but it all has to be spliced together.  Until further notice, my participation in the movie has been put on the back burner.  With that being said, there happened to be a few opportunities since then that have appeared since that have pushed me into the foreground of being naked for the sake of art.  Deciding it would be best to ease oneself into the process rather than jump into the icy pond full force, I accepted the offers.  I was even paid $20 for my time.  Appropriately enough, the first time it happened was in a house which was in a state of disrepair in a sketchy neighborhood, but I was not a situation where I was b...

I had read in a David Sedaris story years ago, appropriately enough called "Naked" in a collection of short stories by the same name, that it is disconcerting to be talking to someone on the phone knowing they are naked.  Circumstance sometimes interferes with things, as he referenced when they say "You caught me on the way to / as I was just getting out of the shower".  In this instance, he was talking to a man at a reservations desk at a clothing optional resort in which he was about to make his reservation for a stay there.  Of this I have no immediate plans to do so; but, as I have been looking at the proverbial Bucket List (although I hate that term for a goal list) as of late since I am staring at age 40 on the horizon, I began to think of nudity and situations in which I have been. My experiences with nudity have been few and far between, most certainly, outside of the ordinary situation.  Though I have a few friends who enjoy going to pagan nudie ...

After six years, I have at last come to the end of my time at Cleveland State University (or CSU as it's known), and I will have that degree coming in the mail soon.  It's been a long road, no question, full of many twists and turns.  I changed my mind a few times about the direction I wanted to go in, I questioned the universe, I had many doubts and insecurities, and I even considered quitting at some point or another.  But no, like everything else, we push on.  It's been a rough road, and yet it was one of the most rewarding things I have ever done. I had many doubts when I started down this path in 2008.  I was 34 years old, I was too old to go back to university life as a full time student, I thought.  But no, I realized that I was given a message.  The old career had bottomed out completely as it was populated by losers who didn't bother to learn their jobs and business and industry (what there is left of it now) had become a hostage crisis....

Today marks the 20th anniversary of the day that Kurt Cobain shot himself in the greenhouse of his Seattle home.  My, much has happened since then.  I was a snot nosed 90s hipster at the tender age of 19 when he died, I thought I knew everything.  Part of that came from being in college radio and thinking I was much cooler than everyone else because I knew about some obscure band or other when no one else did.  The me today laughs at that, but like everything else you didn't know until later how wrong you are.  It's hard to imagine that world anymore.  This was the dawn of the Internet and yet we barely touched it.  There was no social media, no text messaging, cell phones were the size of walkie talkies and were only found in cars or among the elite.  Everything just kind of went silent that day, no one was around.  This was, of course, my moment in youth culture as this was my era, The Grunge Years.  Bar...

As Valentine's Day approaches, there are a million things that people will do and say about love because that's what we do on Valentine's Day.  We will either spend a bundle on candy and flowers (for ourselves or someone else), or do the whole "I hate Valentine's Day" routine.  We will show what rebels we are by not buying said candy and flowers and whining about it, aren't we punk rock?  Ha ha ha ...  What can I possibly say about it that has not already been written before or since, by me or another party on this most sordid of sordid topics?  I wish I could, even after rereading my past materials on this site and others'.  Perhaps I will reflect upon this sordid topic in a new way ... Love gets harder as you get older, the reasons are many.  When we are between age 18-24, no matter what your life experience, it seems that people think that we are supposed to immediately move onto the next phase in life.  This can include many things, from mov...

One of my resolutions for this year was to never mention IT again, but as we are barely a week or two into the new year, here I am breaking it already.  I made a few resolutions which everyone does (work out everyday, loose weight, not eat so many carbs, etc.), and those are not outrageous by any means.  It's also not outrageous to break any of them after a few days either.  Still, this is something that has lingered within my mind for a long time.  When I got down to my high school weight in 06, I no longer suffered from the condition.  However, the only way in my case that I can completely keep the condition under control is to not eat any more than 800 calories a day, which is nearly impossible for anyone to do.  Someone brought it up recently, and I think I have been obsessing about it ever since.  I am far from the only one who suffers from this condition, so if someone else is out there who happens to read this, know that I feel the pain of ...

As another year comes to a close, it's time to once again wax poetic and look back on what we have experienced and learned.  It was a difficult year, like the last few years have been for all of us.  I learned a lot, I had some wonderfully happy moments and my share of horrible moments, it was not as bad nor as good as some have been, and yet it certainly hasn't been boring.  Made some wonderful new friends, had a few new experiences, and discovered much about the world and within myself.  Certainly more than most people get to do with themselves, but most people aren't committed to such experiences in life.  The literal education experience continues for me.  After having been kicked out of the redneck middle school at the end of last year, had to petition with CSU to put me, once again, into Practicum.  As I am now familiar with the process and how it goes, when this happens (and I am not the first by any means) the higher institution that is wanti...