2ndclepunkbuddha

Tonight I went out to dinner and ate a semi lousy meal (that was really due to the foot dragging of the staff, plus the fact that the grilled cheese was something I could've eaten at home), then went to the local Dave & Buster's to play games.  Marq was all stoked about air hockey, and yes he beat me.  Then we played one of those basketball games to get as many shots in the hoop in 30 seconds (I won a few of those games, but I lost track of how many we actually played), and then we played House of the Dead 2 where we didn't win but I scored higher than he did on it.  As we decided to sit at the bar and drink milkshakes, I passed by this man who I was sure I knew somehow.  We may have made eye contact and for a split second, I said to Marq that I saw this man in a stripped sweater back there and he looked so familiar to me.  I looked a few times in that direction thinking that I would see him again, but no such luck.  After a final air hockey game (and y...

As the year comes to a close once again, it's time to take a look back on the year's events and what one has or hasn't learned from the experience.  2012 was a year of ups and downs, to be sure, but then again what year hasn't been for me?  The biggest changes and experiences came in the form of educational pursuits as they have been for the last several years.  As I have documented, I started Practicum at a middle school in a Northeast Ohio suburb (but I won't say where, because I AIN'T CRAZY!), half a day four days a week.  To say that I learned a lot is an understatement.  My mentor is a good woman who I had built up a great trust and working partnership with.  The kids, however, were probably the worst I have ever encountered.  The city kids were better than these assholes.  Some may look at me and say "Oh how can you call them assholes when they are only kids?"  Spend a few hours with them and you'll agree.  I had one kid whose fath...

We have reached the end of classes this semester at CSU.  These last few weeks have been rough ones, no question.  The practicum hassle sent me into a tailspin, my mental health went out of control because of it and that phone call from the past, and I am left wondering what the future will or won't hold for me.  The final on Tuesday is foremost in my mind at this moment, I must blow it out of the water or there will be hell to pay once again.  I think I am feeling a great amount of fear as the appeals meeting comes closer, I don't know what to expect out of it.  The only thing I can say to them is that this experience has caused me to look deep within myself and attempt to learn some things about what exactly is it that I am made of.  I realize a few things, one of which is that I have a very authoritarian streak within me.  What I say has to GO, I am the king of the castle.  Unfortunately others would rather sit on their asses and do nothing and...